Heart on Fire

Twitter had become more then just a social net work for me, it's become a way for me to talk to the best people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting :). Miss Jen is crazy,loving, sweet and a total dork but that's why you have to love her :), she can always cheer anyone up even if she isn't feeling well. She's also a very kind and caring person, I mean come on she sent us OMP!!peeps buttons to represent Finale and TeamPatch in it's final hours. Manon is so adorable, cute, funny,silly and super sweet :). I love how my crazy awesome French friend has trouble understanding me sometimes and sometimes I have to try and figure out what she is trying to say but honesty talking to her is one of the many highlights of my day. She will always ask me what is wrong if there is something bothering me, always a good listener. Miss British is simply great :p she is strong willed, opinionated, crazy and just lovable :p. We always have a tendency to argue over something but I wouldn't trade that for the world, she is always keeping me on my toes and I love it :). My young friend Morelia is very passionate about the things she loves, she's always coming to me for advice and I always cherish that. I love being able to be there for her when ever she needs me because I know how cruel life can be at her age. She is so sweet and innocent but she doesn't see it. I hope one day she can. I love my twitter friends like crazy, if I hadn't met these wonderful people when I did I don't know what I would be like now. In a way these people helped me out of my funk, they made me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry. I owe them so much but I'll never fully be able to repay them for their kindness and friendship.. Love you guys <3

Since I thought my life went to hell a year ago a lot has changed. I've met wonderful new people whom I love dearly. Started a new job which I enjoy it a lot just not enough hours sadly. I feel like I'm on the brink of finally deciding what to take for school. My confidence level has gone up some what so that's great. I definitely learnt a lot about my self that has opened my eye to a lot of crap that went down last year. I've come to realise that i was so scared to lose someone who I thought was the most important person in my life, that i became to attached, to forceful. Thinking back on it now its like yikes..I scare my self. I guess I was just really wanted someone to care about me and not to leave. But by being that way I was ( not saying they were Innocent cuz they weren't) I ended up pushing them away, in all honesty i don't blame them. In a way I'm glad it happened because i learnt from it. Plus in the long run them not being in my life is a good thing. I'm not going to say that through out the year it was easy, because it wasn't. But I can remember when Thanksgiving came around and I walked into the living room and it hit me*bam* and I looked at my mom and said "hmm today is Oct,8th it's officially been a year" it didn't bug me or cause me pain like I thought it would have. For a long while all I could do was think about it, but now it's just a thought at the back on my mind. I'm way more guarded now about my feelings or letting my self like someone. Sometimes the past is a good thing to reflect upon because it can teach us the order of our mistakes and how to learn from them..Life is one big journey with many bumps in the road that leads to many different out comes.